...so... something you all have been waiting for...

...yes... its been a busy day... got out at 11... came back around 8...

classes... try and do some design for our SDP photo rig... have to give it to Rob by this weekend...

yesterday... i was just thinking... whats missing this semester... finally it hit me... a shoot with the fire department... hmmm gotta make it happen... so... went to the north station to talk to the assistant chief... to see how possible it is...

well... its happening... and its going to be big... party involved... you lucky people... :D...

production notes:

its going to be a scene of a tragic accident... ofcourse with a bit of twisted humor... subjects in the scene... fireman(a very good chunk of the student fource i am guessing) and people involved in the accident, probably people i will convince its a good idea to tag along with me on the day...i thought i will pay tribute to the failed fatal car crash i was involved in...

anyway... i will be working on some sketches for the shoot, as soon as i get some time,... so keep an eye out... if you see the center of amherst closed off... i am probably making my photos... :D

its going to be a logistical nightmare... but... hopefully some priceless images to look forward too...

for now... i will leave u with something i got to do today... that cheered me up for a moment...

Sean...from the series... 'the change'

...so... whats wrong with me...

...highlight of the weekend... i lost my scarf... why is my life... seemingly going well... and then gets punctuated by these disastars.... i lost my scarf today... and yes... its a disastar... my fav one... :'( worse part... i dont have insurance for that... i had that for the car... damn it...

hmmm... well... it was ok otherwise... got some work done at the library... and on the way back... lost my scarf ofcourse... took some photos at north...

racially charged... i know... my thoughts read on...



well... put people of 5 different races in the same room... all with equal intellect...and an infinite amount of respect for each other... this is what is bound to happen...i am gald we all move along...and love to appreciate each others differences and get along...if u know me... u probably know my actual views on the subject... people should be respected no matter who they are...where they are from... what god they prey too... how much money they make... what their skin colors is and so on.... that said... i think people do stereotype... and its funny... and sometimes amusing to see how wrong they are... or in some cases... how right they are... this series of photos deals with that...

now that we all love each other... lets have some fun in the coming months... :D

...so...why am i not dead after that car crash...

...so yes... why am i still here after the crash... i mean... the police were kinda surprised... and the towing guy thought i was sad because of who ever was driving... so... it finally hit me... that was pretty freakingly close... it would have just been 6 years earlier... but... its close enough... haha... my neck could have snapped... i think... but yes... sadly for some of you... i am still here... barely...

... i do think god has a sense of humor though... u know... how they say... all your life flashs before you... right before your death... well... u know what i saw... everything that i am going to miss due to my early departure... how fucked up is that... i mean... even at the last moments i am alive... u get teased by the one 'all knowing being' ... funny... i think... tragic as well...

...happy fuckin valentines day...

...yes... it was... wasnt it... def ended with a BANG!!!

snow day... nice weather outside... went on a drive with ricky to best buy to grab a digital optical cable so that we can play mortal kombat in surround sound... check... an hour of MK... best valentines day ever...

so on our way back... we run into these kids snow boarding on the banks of the football fields (yes... its football... not soccer...) so... we park ... go out... and photograph kids jumping ramps in freezing temperatures.... good times definitely...

...initially i decided to stay at home and get some work done... but then the guys wanted me to come and hang out... then saber called... and mary... and i was like... oh well... might as well just go and say hi... my mom goes... take the bus... its icy outside... u shouldnt be drivin...

being an ass... i took the car... dropped of mary... and went to sabers place... i have been turning his invittions for atleast two years... so... thought i would atleast make the effort of showing up this time...

had a nice couple of hours there... and then decided to head back... and drop by toans and seans... oh well... that never happened...

up triangle street... hit a ice patch... made a 90... hmmm... and i am thinking... "...wait a sec here... why am i going forward sideways...??? .... and hey... i am heading right towards that electric pole.... "BANG"" what a fuckin pole that was...

...911... i had my fire dept pager on me... so was just waiting to hear... "5184... collision with a light pole on the intersection of kellogg and triangle st... the idiot says he is okay... dispatch........"

...police reports.... waiting for the tow truck for an hour and a half... well... yea... i had a lovely evening....

...i am sitting the hospital bed right now... and the people i love the most got me a nice laptop to tell the world what happened to me... well... the view is nice... everything is white and clean... unlike my lovely room... and there are a hundred tubes stuck in me... and a catheter in my fore arm....

....the car is a wrreck... and so am i... well... always was... but hey...

....a part of me died last night... this is just a ghost of what once was... if u see me around the campus... its just my spirit watching over u...

good bye my friends...

...long long LONG day...

...so... it was suppose to be a long day... its 4 am... so i guess it was... if there is class tomorrow... i am gonna miss the photo class...

anyway... was an interesting day... went in for animal behaviour (...thats how the british spell it...) i had all my stuff with me... and ofcourse the priceless d2x... had to shoot the stuff for the UMass magazine...

once i was done with class... headed straight for the library... Sean called me... he was going to be my model for the day... :D exciting times... i knew puttin him in the "Cell zone" was a fun idea... i was gonna do some fun photos... so i asked him to bring a tooth brush and paste with him... hour of scouting, setting up and shooting for the magazine... i was done... and now for 10 mins of fun...

we ran into Liz at the library... and she was kind enough to hang out... and have a good laugh at what i was doing... i think she took a few snaps herself of me workin... looking forward to those... :D

fun shoot:

...we went for lunch afterwards liz, sean and i.... well... another stunning image there... :


...had cancer genetics class afterwards... and then off to the SDP meeting with brendan and rob... i ran into toan and went down to the collegian to see Eric about the media passes for the UMass vs Northeastern game in boston on the 25th... thought i would go down to boston on sunday and check out the game up close... should be fun if everything comes through...

...had to shoot a meeting at SOM for the collegian... and then... finally... after a long long day... back home at 8... or was it 7... who cares...

anyway... i havent seen ricky in a while... so when he called about some help to setup his home theater system... i decided to go over... fixed up the speaker... and had a game of mortal kombat armageddon... wow... what a freakin game... i love MK... and this version has all characters starting from MK 1... god i died and went to heaven....

apparently it started snowing while i was there... so after i got back... i drove up to campus to photograph the snowy campus... wow... what a view... and isnt it fun to drive the car in the snow... it fish tails and stuff... :D... i am def a happy camper... walked and drove around campus for an hour... nearly wet and probably suffering from hypothermia... got back at 12 or 1... i think...

the next few hours are a blurr.... anyways... here i am... still awake writing this...

not a boring day... well... i didnt get time to think about it... so... maybe i can find ways to make it sound boring... but that for another time...

oh yea... an amusing fact... while walking with toan... and thinking of how to offend people... came up with something... if you are really pissed at some... say:

"fuck you...(...pause...).... and your forefathers...."

note: its all about the pause... the longer the pause... the higher up in the geneaology you are going... so... the more forefathers u are.... u know what i am gettin at....

...not a bad day...

...so yea... after staying awake till 3... finally handed in my probability HW... hmmm cant remember the last time i actually did that...

...photographing art all day is pretty exciting... ran into this awesome printer... Michael Mazur... great artist... going through the university galleries archives is more fun then i could have imagined... plus... no one bosses u around... good work... :D.... thanks Liz... oh damn... i forgot to call her... gotta do it now...

hmmm... what else... yea... i will be photographing the library over the next couple of weeks for the UMass magazine... so... looking forward to that... lot of interesting images will come out i am sure... oh yes... and i met my match at the office today... she is so cool... we are going to have so much fun.... i just know it... might end up marrying this girl*... i know it... u will be seeing us together a lot... :D hahaha

oh yes... and Matt called... might be going out on a bit of adventure tonight as well... he is doing parkour style stunts around campus tomorrow morning... so... he will be scouting tonight and laying down ice so he can slide in the morning... tomorrow is going to be awesome... i know... but tonight might be interesting too... cold... but interesting...

gotta get my act together for SDP too... i have been putting together a blue print for our camera rig... so hopefully within the week we can send out an order for the parts... and have the thing made soon... :D... should be exciting...



*girl: she has a white tattoo that says D2Xs

...bloggin...

...so... i got inspired by this friend of mine to write a blog... sean to be exact: www.tulsamherst.blogspot.com/

...anyway... reading his stuff... i thought... "wow... he is a good writer... and a really interesting person... and he is sharing all his thoughts with us"

...well... i am not intelligent and i rarely have 'shareable' experiences or thoughts... but i do laugh at myself a lot... so thought i will share the thoughts so we can all laugh... at me... and have a rackus...

...reason for the clean look (shaved and short hair): well... i have been having this feeling that... everytime i walk into starbucks... everyone seems to be on AMBER alert, looking at me weird... i reach to get my camera out from my bags... and they seem to be looking for their cell phones... hmmm... i thought... too much trouble... lets try and blend in for once... :D obviously... i will still be the balck sheep in the herd...

...couple of good things did happen this weekend... got in the shower with two other guys and photograph ourselves... printed 2 copies of 16 by 20 inch black and white prints out of my xpan negatives... simply STUNNING... saw Kara, probably for last time before she leaves for costa rica... oh yea... and made fun of Pat... :P... sorry... i hope u can forgive me... i saw her for the first time this semester... and the first thing she said was... "...i hate u nafis..." i think thats the last thing she said to me too... two hours later... oh yea... our whole conversation was puntuated by that phrase as well... hmmm... now that i think of it... i wasnt very nice today...

damn... probability homework... will try and continue the documentation of my boring life soon...